once strong broken twice!!

I really don't know if I am giving away every detail with that heading but I am scared to death...
I have given all that I had once and I have seen things go hay wired...feeling every bit of what went wrong was my fault!
I am just so scared of those awry things being repeated again...scared not because I don't want to improve or I don’t want to change!
Scared, because I don't as yet know why those things happened in the fashion I least wanted!
I just so turn negative when the most minuscule of the instances reflect those mishaps of the past, when the slightest of occurrences resemble the by-gone turmoil.

I just thought I was strong once but I am realizing with each passing moment that the strength would melt away and if something of the past were to now repeat itself ...the me in me 'once strong' would be 'broken twice'!!!

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RAGE - SOCIETY

its been days and days thinking what to write and to use the right language in the blog and all i end up is not writing all those things which i feel, which i feel is something we may or may not always think and think over again and again. And now i decide fuck with the language and fuck with all the sense i could anything i want to and y not we r living in the democracy, huh democratic society - seems funny but yes u r right we r living in a democracy in that democracy where you can't love thy neighbour coz he/she is not of ur niche.........what a democrat world it is when a girl's been given every right to choose her dress, her lipstick, her college all the miniscule things but not the decisions of life...........what field to go in ........oh u can't do that it would not give you the right paycheck beta and the most important decision of spending whole life with some guy - oh u can't do this to us u can't marry that guy he is not at all fitting our society.......

dedicated to the loved ones!!!

is having a heart a "crime"??? why are only the show-offs understood and accepted? why does no one realize the genuinity if you don't brag about your contributions? it's only the ones who shed tears are actually apologised to. why are the braver people as good as condemned? people have expectations from you but they can not mention the same in words for their inflated ego. you are never appreciated for helping someone but you are as hell reprimanded for the slightest of mistakes. is it too much to expect that the people you help keeping aside your responsibilities, help you back or atleast leave a note of thank, even if not apreciate or feel oblidged that you were there when the world had turned its back to their face? why in the world is the one who accepts faults bombasted and the one stubborn people are categorised as "principled"? there are people who are fathomed...but there are also people who only act "pricey", no one acknowledges amidst the

roses inundate me......keeping at bay their thorns.....thinking me beautifully complete they don prick.....just if i could , how wish to show the ugly......vulnerability underneath! .......judging me ........hail and stong they don attack........am i lucky that they can't see the aching wounds..........verile and tender!

Dreamer...

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