once strong broken twice!!

I really don't know if I am giving away every detail with that heading but I am scared to death...
I have given all that I had once and I have seen things go hay wired...feeling every bit of what went wrong was my fault!
I am just so scared of those awry things being repeated again...scared not because I don't want to improve or I don’t want to change!
Scared, because I don't as yet know why those things happened in the fashion I least wanted!
I just so turn negative when the most minuscule of the instances reflect those mishaps of the past, when the slightest of occurrences resemble the by-gone turmoil.

I just thought I was strong once but I am realizing with each passing moment that the strength would melt away and if something of the past were to now repeat itself ...the me in me 'once strong' would be 'broken twice'!!!

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Believe

The title is not incomplete. At least not in the context of what I want to say. I know I am very young to be preaching things like this but I would rather say that I am just a little more thankful. “Believing” is the one thing that I truly feel is essential to achieving everything that we have ever desired. Believe that whatever will happen, will be for the best. When you find yourself in a situation which seems very critical and difficult to get past, just for a while make your mind believe that you have solved the problem and in just about some time you will be guided to the right path, irrespective of what your decision was. I know that sounds bizarre and absolutely insane but I can say that not because I am cranky (though I am) but because I have experienced that method work for me. Just when I thought that there has probably come a time where I will have to make alterations to the plan I had for myself, something as per my plan comes my way. It’s as if someone else was making th...

Maturity

I wonder how people my age can think so objectively...and whats even more surprising is not just one or two...but most of the people around me can make equitable comparisons with precision.....whereas I feel I tend to loose out on the track or tend to get biased at times... That is for sure not a sign of maturity....for it's not only what I have been fed with ever since I was a child that makes me think "brevity" and "objectivity" are very pivotal indicators of a grown up person but now I "feel" this too! I am bedazzled by these people....and wish to be like them some day and get over with this naivete, that to my mind is like my nick name....but then again the prepossessed me takes over and I wonder if the "naivete" is actually that or just a case curiosity or a subtle form of rebellious .... Nonetheless, with whatever little 'objectivity' I have ...I would love to conclude that it is in fact some sort of a miniature REBEL!

MYSTERY ITSELF!

the mysteries of life ARE PROBABLY A MYSTERY THEMSELVES! Something i have never been able to understand is the mystery life poses in the form of myraid faces who are unrevealed , unfathomable enigmas even to themselves! i don know if I am a part of that symphonic insurrection!!

Dreamer...

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