Dreamer...

i don't know if there's anything i would want more at this stage of my life....Just so wish i get this one! Never imagined i would be able to muster up courage to do this ...but then i did give it a try...things started to fall into place....I so desperately want this to work out well...I so want my dreams to come true! I have always been a believer...and in the current stage of my life i have not wanted anything more than this...all the energy at least in terms of thoughts was accumulated on this one thing....I wish and pray that I get this! My beliefs are just going go so much stronger...I might just go crazy with joy if this thing turns out right...Right the way i want it to!

I don't know why but at times we tend to loose a sight of what we want to be and who we are, a sight of who we would love and most importantly why we love ourselves. Luckily though, there take place some incidents in life or may be just some co-incidences because of which we are reminded of some of the most important points to be kept in mind. Pointers that make you, "you"...things that your belief systems are based on. The learning's that give you strength...strength to work, to live, to fight and stand for yourself. The discoveries that you made through experience and later realized that coincide with all what has been taught to you by your elders and is still being tried to make a part of your mental systems...(if only they knew you have grown up a little on your own too). I call these coincidences, the fortunate encounters, the encounters of fortune in life for you to acquire the 'spirit of life'.

Is it too much to be asking for someone you can share your silence with?? Is it too much to be asking for someone you can connect with, without talking?? Is it too much to want to have someone share everything with you?? Is it too selfish to be the only one sharing someone’s secrets?? Is it just me or there are people that greedy?? Have I not grown up yet? Or is there something wrong with the way I have? Is it the loneliness inside me? Or am I just the odd one? I don’t know why but I feel everyone has someone to connect with at every stage of life lest why wouldn’t people be looking for someone to share themselves with. May be there is something inside us all that needs to be developed so that we can be a whole without looking for someone to split up all that is possible inside. I don’t know whether it’s insane to want to have someone who can just see you cry without asking you the reason for it. I don’t whether it’s greedy to have someone give you all the possible time th