Dreamer...

It's weird even for me to say it but finally there is something I am not confused about. I am not very sure whether or not is correct to be mentioning it here but I wish I could paint the city to inform one and all. I don care about coming across as someone absolutely insane but I was just wondering whether it would be incorrect to shout out from the rooftops. I have a bag full of mixed feelings and am just so loving every bit of it. Not that I am not in a mood to disclose those feelings right here right now...but the only concern is the reason (the specific 1) which has me feeling this way might not find it to be such a good idea. The thing is it's only me who feels this way, I don't even know how the reason behind my feeling so elated, feels about my feeling this way. The irony is 'the reason' is not even probably aware of this state I am in. I wish I could paint the town "RED"... I wish I could tag all those mixed feeling under this 1 heading...I wish

I know tht thr's nothing in the world which happens " just like tht" but then 'feeling blue' right now is JLT. May be I don want to elaborate on those reasons and hence trying to get away with "JLT" wtever it is...it's strange and deep. A deep deep 'blue', the depths no one can reach, the depths which are safer alone. Even if there was something 2 show around tht far away, I have my gears worn out and I hv decided to nt seek help "JLT"...There aren't many capable of seeing far & I see no one worthy of travelling that far...don put up the "Y's"...all I'll say is..."just like tht"...

There are times when you expect a certain quantity of 'quality' time from someone in particular. That someone though, has different priorties in life, priorties very different from yours, priorties which differ from the you, 'you' have been. Then you begin to change because of them or may be it's something inside you that you have always wanted something of a kind which you are now very close to, you start fantasizing, start believing that the one thing you thought is a light years far away from you is rather just around the corner. Then you eventually loose the power of deciphering the thin veil of difference. The difference between your dreams and 'you'. Your dreams were still probably around you but in a different direction...a direction you were not looking in. The reality on the contrary, the thing you mistook for your dreams wasnot what you anticipated...it was to suck up all your energies, to fade away your dreams, to take away from you the onethi