Dreamer...

It may be too early in life to be writing something like this. Nonetheless I strongly believe that to achieve something in life the most important thing is, more than even the will to work hard, "the desire to achieve". I believe that when we set our eyes on something and be honest with ourselves about our desires without any inhibitions or second thoughts, that in itself becomes a start point of our unending efforts towards reaching our goals. All of that might sound like someone preaching but it's far from that, I am not in favor of any one believing that just because I think so, that's in the least what I want. Or to be more crude I don't care about who believes that or not, or if at all any one gives a shit about the whole crap. It's just my belief and I have written it here because I wanted to. I also have a reason for believing what I believe. I THINK... the mind is very powerful, at least mine is for sure. And it has the capacity to store within ...

So finally today I really get to talk to someone apparently nothing like me...but as and when I spoke to the fellow...turned out I could relate to too many things...felt nice for sure...'to be able to relate' to someone...the things the person knew was into were impressive...as far as my view point goes definitely better than a lot of other people around me... who seem to be normal...going about every activity like that was all there was to think about...'TRIVIA' ... especially when it comes to some other things to think and ponder over...much important things I would say... ...and then that whole "PRETENSE" crap! gawd....wherever is the world going with all that?? Pretenses and no pretenses the rules and the rule breakers...'anti-establishment'...why can't someone just simplify things for me?? Define, provide lucid explanations of all such words! So that I know black from white and then still choose to remain in my "greys"...

I wonder how people my age can think so objectively...and whats even more surprising is not just one or two...but most of the people around me can make equitable comparisons with precision.....whereas I feel I tend to loose out on the track or tend to get biased at times... That is for sure not a sign of maturity....for it's not only what I have been fed with ever since I was a child that makes me think "brevity" and "objectivity" are very pivotal indicators of a grown up person but now I "feel" this too! I am bedazzled by these people....and wish to be like them some day and get over with this naivete, that to my mind is like my nick name....but then again the prepossessed me takes over and I wonder if the "naivete" is actually that or just a case curiosity or a subtle form of rebellious .... Nonetheless, with whatever little 'objectivity' I have ...I would love to conclude that it is in fact some sort of a miniature REBEL!

This is a piece by the rare genius that was , " RABINDRANATH TAGORE ", my apologies in advance to those who feel offended or feel i have disgraced somehow! The child who is decked with prince's robes and who has Jewelled chains round his neck loses all pleasure in his play; his dress hampers him at every step. In fear that it may be frayed, or stained with dust he keeps himself from the world, and is afraid even to move. Mother, it is no gain, thy bondage of finery, if it keeps one shut off from the healthful dust of the earth, if it rob one of the right of entrance to the great fair of common human life. I really don’t know what the maestro here meant by robes and jeweled chains but I cannot help equate those to the wishes of “secure” future, respectable positions, the clichéd wrongs and the over hyped rights. The relativity of success to my mind is no less than a stain and the never ending comparisons are bondage. Healthful is to be able to let your life be lead by ...

Received the following story in my mailbox. Liked it so much that i felt like posting it here. The questions towards the end hurled right in my face moved me so much. These are absolutely worth pondering over is what i felt! THE SITUATION In Washington DC, at a Metro Station, on a cold January morning in 2007, this man with a violin played six Bach pieces for about 45 minutes. During that time, approximately 2,000 people went through the station, most of them on their way to work. After about 3 minutes, a middle-aged man noticed that there was a musician playing. He slowed his pace and stopped for a few seconds, and then he hurried on to meet his schedule. About 4 minutes later: The violinist received his first dollar. A woman threw money in the hat and, without stopping, continued to walk. At 6 minutes: A young man leaned against the wall to listen to him, then looked at his watch and started to walk again. At 10 minutes: A 3-year old boy stopped, but his mother tugged h...

The title is not incomplete. At least not in the context of what I want to say. I know I am very young to be preaching things like this but I would rather say that I am just a little more thankful. “Believing” is the one thing that I truly feel is essential to achieving everything that we have ever desired. Believe that whatever will happen, will be for the best. When you find yourself in a situation which seems very critical and difficult to get past, just for a while make your mind believe that you have solved the problem and in just about some time you will be guided to the right path, irrespective of what your decision was. I know that sounds bizarre and absolutely insane but I can say that not because I am cranky (though I am) but because I have experienced that method work for me. Just when I thought that there has probably come a time where I will have to make alterations to the plan I had for myself, something as per my plan comes my way. It’s as if someone else was making th...

a simple fact that human brain is powerful is used, at least for quoting, by endless number of people...just some of those people using a wee bit more than others baffles me so much! the part that astounds me, as you might think, is not the fact that only a few people use their brains beyond that regular mundane amount. the bewilderment lies in the fact that as of now I have had the chance to meet not even a handful of them as yet and just a step outside the regular boundaries, the set limits, the beaten path sets one apart so amazingly. Just a tiny step! HOW REALLY POWERFUL MUST THE HUMAN BRAIN BE! The priorities though of the most powerful existing entity are things that to a "too-much" in the limits brain like mine, are far too difficult to co-ordinate even than that entity. The enormous efforts of gaining name, fame, the attempts to portray yourself as an ordinary mortal while your attempts are all concentrated on a huger task of making yourself live long after you ...

its been days and days thinking what to write and to use the right language in the blog and all i end up is not writing all those things which i feel, which i feel is something we may or may not always think and think over again and again. And now i decide fuck with the language and fuck with all the sense i could anything i want to and y not we r living in the democracy, huh democratic society - seems funny but yes u r right we r living in a democracy in that democracy where you can't love thy neighbour coz he/she is not of ur niche.........what a democrat world it is when a girl's been given every right to choose her dress, her lipstick, her college all the miniscule things but not the decisions of life...........what field to go in ........oh u can't do that it would not give you the right paycheck beta and the most important decision of spending whole life with some guy - oh u can't do this to us u can't marry that guy he is not at all fitting our society..........

i don't know if there's anything i would want more at this stage of my life....Just so wish i get this one! Never imagined i would be able to muster up courage to do this ...but then i did give it a try...things started to fall into place....I so desperately want this to work out well...I so want my dreams to come true! I have always been a believer...and in the current stage of my life i have not wanted anything more than this...all the energy at least in terms of thoughts was accumulated on this one thing....I wish and pray that I get this! My beliefs are just going go so much stronger...I might just go crazy with joy if this thing turns out right...Right the way i want it to!

I don't know why but at times we tend to loose a sight of what we want to be and who we are, a sight of who we would love and most importantly why we love ourselves. Luckily though, there take place some incidents in life or may be just some co-incidences because of which we are reminded of some of the most important points to be kept in mind. Pointers that make you, "you"...things that your belief systems are based on. The learning's that give you strength...strength to work, to live, to fight and stand for yourself. The discoveries that you made through experience and later realized that coincide with all what has been taught to you by your elders and is still being tried to make a part of your mental systems...(if only they knew you have grown up a little on your own too). I call these coincidences, the fortunate encounters, the encounters of fortune in life for you to acquire the 'spirit of life'.

Is it too much to be asking for someone you can share your silence with?? Is it too much to be asking for someone you can connect with, without talking?? Is it too much to want to have someone share everything with you?? Is it too selfish to be the only one sharing someone’s secrets?? Is it just me or there are people that greedy?? Have I not grown up yet? Or is there something wrong with the way I have? Is it the loneliness inside me? Or am I just the odd one? I don’t know why but I feel everyone has someone to connect with at every stage of life lest why wouldn’t people be looking for someone to share themselves with. May be there is something inside us all that needs to be developed so that we can be a whole without looking for someone to split up all that is possible inside. I don’t know whether it’s insane to want to have someone who can just see you cry without asking you the reason for it. I don’t whether it’s greedy to have someone give you all the possible time th...

I just fail to realize why people pretend to understand, where it's only required to love. Love of humanity or that of self, stems not as much as from understanding but probably more from simply accepting. Though, the hardest of tasks in life is may be to ‘accept’. No matter the acceptance is of self or of someone else. With most of us striving to perfect ourselves over years and decades of our lives, there is something very crucial that we just forget to acknowledge, approval is probably the key element to improvement. Though, we might seek that same approval from the ones around us we are heartless enough to keep ourselves devoid of the same for ourselves. Habituated of keeping ourselves from the pleasure of ‘consent’ that is derived from the mere knowledge of the fact that something we are doing is not being condemned. We somehow over the period of time lose the ability to support others in the endeavors of their lives. Inhumane as we become we forget that a small gesture ...

I don't know if people are capable of loving other people in their lives or not. though, there is something that I'm sure of, love, if any one can even get close to it is something that gives you courage. courage to live life. obedience to follow through even along the toughest routes and strength to walk miles. The only thing is love and compatibility are things that should go hand in hand but this generally doesn't happen always. As a matter of fact, there can be cases where love is in abundance, too much to take charge of but no language to express the same!

http://www.boloji.com/architecture/00060.html that;s the second article accepted by boloji's editor Mr. Rajinder Krishan. He's such an encouraging person, says I write pretty well and if I write more often I can really excel. YEAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I really don't know if I am giving away every detail with that heading but I am scared to death... I have given all that I had once and I have seen things go hay wired...feeling every bit of what went wrong was my fault! I am just so scared of those awry things being repeated again...scared not because I don't want to improve or I don’t want to change! Scared, because I don't as yet know why those things happened in the fashion I least wanted! I just so turn negative when the most minuscule of the instances reflect those mishaps of the past, when the slightest of occurrences resemble the by-gone turmoil. I just thought I was strong once but I am realizing with each passing moment that the strength would melt away and if something of the past were to now repeat itself ...the me in me 'once strong' would be 'broken twice'!!!

I'm 22 which is pretty big i know but I'm a slow learner and its only recently that i have realized something, right or wrong is yet to be tested. The sense of satisfaction comes not from pushing yourself to the limits but pushing with all your strength to set new limits.

Just one of those phases in life when nothing seems to work, nothing can calm you down. The things that catch your attention are definitely not the ones you need that time. More importantly, the things that need your urgent attention just somehow are incapable of getting a hold on your thought leaving you miserable. Just when you need to be your conscientious best you end up with all the inattentiveness of the world. Just when you need to believe in the heavens inside you nothing can avert you from letting hell break loose. Just the factors that you need riddance surface and re-surface drawing from beneath your toughness everything that adds to your strength. Just the time that is hard to live and yet is crucial jiffy. You would close your eyes and wait for it to pass with panache just the composure is missing. The serenity about you could help but none for the quietude would brake an era. Just when I wish to tell all has hit a drought of means. Just when I wished lucidity my soul...

Given a major portion of my life to it…some thinking about it and the other some trying to learn what actually it about is! Though now after all that time I still don’t know what I was here to know… all the while I have developed a feeling. A Feeling developed, neither of love nor reverence but complete aversion. Repugnance is not for the craft but the factual dexterities required to master the craft! I thought the craft was to display but a parade is what I must learn. Crafts have their language but the things that confuse me are the polished euphemism. The conveyance of skill needs a medium. There are men whose expertise communicates all that is worthy of getting across. Though, step in some middlemen who promote not craft but all that is other than that. All this not at the cost of the craftsmen or the crafts for those are entities far beyond reach but the impact of it is faced by the learners, the beginners… the student. Who is to distinguish between crafts and business when both...

Could have called these musings but the profound use of the verb off-late has resulted in it not being just a thought but a “celebrity” off-late. Also the depths to be reached have transformed into soaring heights. I don’t really know what I mean there I just hope I end up reflecting what I want to. Wishing those reflections are intelligible by me too. For I assume that more often than not people see beyond what I had foreseen. All of these put together form something’s that I have no words for. Though I know these something’s form those things that call themselves the “whatever”. Hence, this attempt begins from the conclusion, beginning from that which is a CULMINATION, a CEASING. The process of emptying into one, leads to ‘the rest’ becoming ‘a whole’. This is all but obvious and nothing worth a mention. The fact, though, that it has been stated, stated again no different shows no reason but ‘DESPERATION’, the Desperation to talk, to be heard, to reach out and know a lot. So th...

A flower that longed for the butterfly would never refuse its color even though the butterfly might not want it. I was told that there are things beyond conditions too. I consider myself oblivious still, I have lost sanity too. I thought you know so much, you knew the conditions too.