once strong broken twice!!

I really don't know if I am giving away every detail with that heading but I am scared to death...
I have given all that I had once and I have seen things go hay wired...feeling every bit of what went wrong was my fault!
I am just so scared of those awry things being repeated again...scared not because I don't want to improve or I don’t want to change!
Scared, because I don't as yet know why those things happened in the fashion I least wanted!
I just so turn negative when the most minuscule of the instances reflect those mishaps of the past, when the slightest of occurrences resemble the by-gone turmoil.

I just thought I was strong once but I am realizing with each passing moment that the strength would melt away and if something of the past were to now repeat itself ...the me in me 'once strong' would be 'broken twice'!!!

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dedicated to the loved ones!!!

is having a heart a "crime"??? why are only the show-offs understood and accepted? why does no one realize the genuinity if you don't brag about your contributions? it's only the ones who shed tears are actually apologised to. why are the braver people as good as condemned? people have expectations from you but they can not mention the same in words for their inflated ego. you are never appreciated for helping someone but you are as hell reprimanded for the slightest of mistakes. is it too much to expect that the people you help keeping aside your responsibilities, help you back or atleast leave a note of thank, even if not apreciate or feel oblidged that you were there when the world had turned its back to their face? why in the world is the one who accepts faults bombasted and the one stubborn people are categorised as "principled"? there are people who are fathomed...but there are also people who only act "pricey", no one acknowledges amidst the...

May I Ask This........

Aren't there a few momemts you really cherish..........? Why..........you don't know! Should you................You don't want to know! Aren't there a few instances which are more than 'JUST MEMORIES'.................. How much ...........you Know not! Could there be better..................You never compare! Aren't there a few people really ' Special '.................. What's their speciality....................? .......Can I find out? Are " They " related ..................... ? " You " belong !!

roses inundate me......keeping at bay their thorns.....thinking me beautifully complete they don prick.....just if i could , how wish to show the ugly......vulnerability underneath! .......judging me ........hail and stong they don attack........am i lucky that they can't see the aching wounds..........verile and tender!

Dreamer...

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